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Update to life...

Hi Flist.

Yes, I'm still alive.

Sort of.

I think.

At least, it feels like it.



So I haven't posted in what - weeks? O.o

I confess, I've been either too busy, or simply too brain dead to write much of anything. So much happening, and no time to assimilate it all.

Where to start?

Maybe with my husband moving out? Oh, I'd already talked about that, hadn't I? Well, it's really official now. He's over in his new place, I'm here, and it feels right. I'm glad that we did this. I don't feel alone or anything. On the contrary, I truly enjoy the peace and quiet of my own home. When he does come by, because he needs something, or we have to deal with some paperwork, it's a real imposition for me. I'm sure I'll get over that in time, but right now I'd rather I didn't see him too often. Not that there's trouble between us, on the contrary. I just need time to adjust to the situation. And by that I mean the freedom to be myself again. To do what I want, when I want. To express myself in the house through decoration, colour, paintings etc. To re-arrange the furniture. To be honest, I don't even think of him often. Only when something reminds me. And it feels good.

Since he moved out, we ended with two free rooms in the house. As of June 1st, I now have a renter in my husband's former room. It feels odd to have a stranger in the house. But I think he's not going to be around all that much, since he's going to spend most of his time in Bulgaria, renovating the house that he bought there with his SO. They're going to be traveling back and forth often, he told me, so I shouldn't have him around too much. It's still weird to hear unfamiliar noises in the house. But I'll get used to it. It's income, and that's all that I'm interested in.

Was away at diverse conventions. One was very good, one wasn't. Both were lots of work, the bad one was a lot of driving on top of that. Have to now re-think part of my publishing program. Maybe shuffle some titles, re-align some things, change the merchandise and such. We'll see.

Been very tired and occasionally depressed lately. Maybe it's all the work and worry just getting to me. I'm really going to *need* that vacation this year!

I also need a second job. Since there are certain details involved, having to do with the way social security and such works here in Germany, I can't just go and take a cashier's job or a temp secretary job for a while. Even supposing there'd be anything available out here... >.> But I'm not giving up. I'm just looking for new ideas.

Anyone have any experience with Etsy.com? Selling things there? Is it any good? Are you making money there?

What else... Oh yes. In those few moments of time that I do have left, I've been playing Devil May Cry 4. Been so fascinated by the game, that I've been making and posting screen shots from it (in between my own photography) on my DA Gallery. But I've also been posting photos, taken with my new camera. Best thing to do is to look in the gallery itself, it's all sorted in folders there...

Started a writing blog on Wordpress. It's meant for everything that the muse sends my way: poetry, snippets, thoughts, parts of stories - original and fandom - and anything else I can think of. Wander on over, if you like.

Girl-Child is still growing like a weed. She's on holiday this and next week, so she's gone up to Würzburg to see her grandparents. One set of them, that is. ^___^ I'm not quite sure when she's going to be back. Weekend or beginning of next week, I think. I don't mind that much. Though I love having her at home, I also enjoy the quiet when she's not.

What else? Just emo-stuff, for the most part. Maybe it's hormones... having been graced with the monthly joy yesterday... /irony. At least, if I decide to jump out the kitchen window, I don't get far. It's only about a yard above the ground. ^___^

*HUGS* to all!
Tags: depression, life, what am i doing here?
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